my chomby

got a new kitten....chomby....a self invited egyptian mau+malaysiana cat....who has a bad habit of bringing in roaches that frightens everyone....sheeshhh....tat cat....but once i've got his pics, i'll put it up ere

however, ajam calls him gay cat....yeah rite....chomby learnt tat from him.....hehehehehe....yeah yeah...ajam gay~

watching 'Stained Glass' almost choked me...

i started watching 'Stained Glass' yesterday and boy was it a torture.....until today.....20 disks man!!! i almost died watching such pathetic & dreading role of the main female protagonist & also her other 'half', naturally the one she ended up marrying.....

i can't understand.....for the past 12 freaking years she's with one of their bestfriend & dun tell me tat there's no sparks between them???? seriously....okay, fine, but wat of their friendship?? he did the same thing as usual like for the past 12 freaking years & only when their 'long lost' friend came back into their lives, she 'changed' drastically 360 degrees!! man....i got sick of that character right now.....no doubt the actress of the drama is good, but the script & plot is rather stale & pathetic.....kim ha neul is a talented actress & i think this kinda storyline 'kills' her naturally as an actress.....lee dong gun plays a good role, naturally good-looking is a must but i felt tat there wasn't much of chemistry between the two of them, kim ha neul seemed to be pushing their chemistry further where lee dong gun lacked......it is surprising to see kim sung su played such a 'naive & subservient' dude in this story.....but i still liked him in Full House despite the fact tat there wasn't much of character development in his role in Full House, and in this case in Stained Glass, it is a gross understatement to say that he has character development, i think the character lacked the fire especially his dialogues, but his expression was there....perhaps he needs a personal acting coach.....hmmm.....i would've recommend sarah polley, but the lass doesn't speak an inch of korean.....

Stained Glass as far as i have seen by far (only reached disk 12), it has good musical score & i like the theme song as well, but seriously, i think i'm sick of the character jin suh, played by kim ha neul......feel like killing her myself....i can't bear to watch the rest of the 8 disk left....too heart wrenching for me to continue moving on........

something to think about...

lately have been thinking....

wat am i gonna do without my dad & my cat....apparently, both of them got sick at the same time & not feeling well....everytime when i got a phonecall from mum, i'd get worried.....something might've happened to them.....

whenever i talk to dad on the phone, i'd just have to hold back and choke on my own tears....seriously....even Sarsi, i have lots to worry about....but nursing him back to health is God's gift....thank goodness Sarsi is alive and kicking at the moment....

wat do i do without them huh???

on excessive boredom......and Full House

holiday only for a week.....boring......but i'm trying to enjoy as much as i can!! oh yeah, just finished watching Full House today.....i find it verrrrrrryyyy interesting.....unlike other korean dramas, this one seemed to have most element....especially humour which is very much straight forward unlike some others.....i'd rank this drama third after Winter Sonata and Autumn Love Story.....and i wouldn't hesitate to watch it again.....kudos to the production team esp the director and script-writer but one thing tat really bothers me though was the fashion sense of the ladies.....seriously....i nearly screamed when watching one of my favourite actresses (song hae gyo) dressed in such...such....such....(me: *speechless*) arrrghhhh.....at least winter sonata and autumn love story was by far much better.....and then han eun jeong had probably the WORST fashion attire in the whole production (not to mention the one where she acted in Wonderful Life!!) was it necessary to show her 'colourful' and 'artistic' bra all the time??? sheeshhh.....in wonderful life, she looked like a school marm if u asked me.....i keep on screaming to myself.....SACK THE FASHION DIRECTOR!!! but i kinda like kim seong soo though (okay lin!!! dun remind me about his xxx movie!!! i'll take tat outta my mind now!!) *sigh* i wonder if there's a guy like tat in REAL world beside virtually in the idiot box??

i wonder if there's anyone would like to make something of a 'reunion' kinda drama.....goshhh....i'd dream of a collaboration that has choi ji woo, song hae gyo and maybe jung da bin/moon geun young as the female leads and the guys would be bae yong jun, song seong heun, rain (lin always supports him and i reckon he ain't tat bad acting), kim rae won, kim jae won/won bin....well....not sure la....about the guys....but one thing is most certain....get somebody who as BETTER sense of fashion and dressing!!! they all looked like.....sheeshh....as if they're some country bumpkin or something.....

hmmm...wonder if i've got talent to write scripts huh??? hahhahaa....i'd probably die of embarrassment though but then again, it reminded me of the time when we had drama and theatre in school....sheeshhh....i really missed those days......

final exams are here.....*dread, dread, dread*

okay....

finals are here...wat else do we do??? study like mad perhaps?? but not sure how am i going to do this time....i'm not tat smart like shida or effa....but come to think of it, i think i'd rather spend my lifetime on some mountain & live like a hermit...(i bet a lot of my frenz wud go 'huh??')

but i'm trying my best 'ere & hopefully would be able to manage to get into the deans list this time....but i'm not so sure about 2 of my subjects this semester, i didn't know operations management is quite tough tat i gotta answer ALL the bloody questions!!! sheeshhh....

just finished an english paper this morning....i think i did fairly okay, not to say that i think i am good but i think well enough though, hopefully i'd get an A!! hahaha...kinda vain huh??

sorry for the jumbled up posting now, my mind is elsewhere at the moment....NOPE, i'm not looking at any 'illegal' stuff mind you, just tat i'm thinking about my next paper & also my assignment which i have to hand in tomorrow....yeah....

orchids orchids orchids....

okay....i've been sitting here for about two hours looking for blasted information regarding orchids....in fact, i dunno watever reason i have for choosing orchid as an online business, i know darn well that they are unique and interesting and i like orchid better than roses but....gawd!!!

800 genera....10,000 species......300,000 hybrids??? by the end of the day, i think i can bloody speak latin....

some interesting facts about orchid i find really interesting is that they are so unique not only in terms of looks but also fragrance....i didn't know that there is chocolatey smell in orchids, i only thought vanilla.....tat makes it so dynamic huh?? hehehehe....

i like this picture of this orchid, but kinda forgot the name of it...looks like a phalaenopsis species to me....oh yeah, LIN, if you're reading this....i know you would, i forgot the link to your blog page la again dear.....tak ingat....hhehehe

oh yeah, take some pictures okay??? miss you dear...

on my birthday....and realisation....that HE is around....

watching 'Queen of Lunch Time Cuisine' the whole freaking box until i finished them this morning at about 6.30 am!! hehehee....

but wat came to my realisation was the male protagonist in the story, well, there are actually two of them (somewhat of a typical love triangle scenario) but i like both of them & i can actually felt how the female protagonist feels in this (played by the wonderful yuko takeuchi!)

how much yosuke eguchi resembled somebody that i am somewhat afraid to face create a chism in my emotions tat i was so afraid to show.....he reminded me so much of the guy in my dreams (people, its not 'dream guy' literally here but i actually dreamt a guy looked like him....i guess la) technically of course! he had the hair, the physique....*sigh*

but is it him??? i'm confused....i just got this gut feeling tat i am gonna meet this guy soon & GOD, i'm freaking scared....its bad tat i've had dreams about him except i dun get to see his face!! yeah, how do i know its yosuke eguchi?? i never said its him, only he looks like HIM!! seriously scary la....even typing this is giving me the goose bumps.....

i dunno why am i feeling this way?? why am i so bloody 'attached' to him?? someone whom i have never met....but only dreamt about....and due to that, i can't have a normal relationship wif anyone....seriously.....damn.....thinking about tat guy is driving me nuts!!! but hopefully, i don't think i'd like to meet him....i'm just !$%#^@#^ scared alrite??? not ready to face him yet.....and yet somehow, i feel like as if we've got some kind of connection.....is it karma or wat??

on the quarter-age life crisis & upcoming birthday...

great....

february is in the corner....yup, tat means tat i'm gonna be another year older.....wat can i contemplate being a 27 year old & doin' her degree & not finished her studies yet??? can i feel envious of my friends??? how droll.....

so, wat on earth am i going to do then?? my friends are insisting that i get married.....ASAP!!! gosh!! wat u think i am?? some cattle off for auction?? i'd rather contemplate suicide than enslaved myself to the institution known as 'marriage'.....i'm sure most of my friends wud understand my utter feelings and sarcasm (mind the sarcasm) in regards to the idea of marriage & family.....

i am getting older....damn....i'm not worried about my current status quo per se but in actuality, i'm worried tat i look like some old crone!!! yuuuuupppp....exactly is......

i dunno wat i'm going to get for my birthday but i sure dun look too happy about it....i know i like presents (dun we all??? ^.^)

damn....its too depressing to even type this down.....i hate my birthdays.....i can bet for sure tat my parents are going to forget them again.....tats so heartaching.....(yeah rite!!)

an annoying yet boring day until.....

after nearly a week of looking after my spoilt brat of a cat Sarsi, he's getting much better now, thank GOD for that!! nearly bought a large nice box from Hallmark as his coffin!!! (gosh no!!) Sarsi is a survivor & i'm freakin' proud of him, GOD must've love him a lot too.....

[you guys are just looking at the picture huh?? i knew it wud get your attention!]

unlike the title of my posting today, i've been surfing the net not only for information regarding my assignments (yup...haven't got to doing it yet...procrastination seemed to be my specialty) & also having fun looking up pictures and other tools for making websites......let me skip that part of my 'boring' activity.....until something caught my attention when looking for some materials!

seriously i didn't realised until i've crossed upon 'hentai' i didn't know that they made seriously good artwork using....*you know what i mean!* it was very very interesting & i had the whole night surfing and studying what hentai is all about! isn't tat amazing?? do i sound odd to everybody?? i like some of the artworks, it was beautiful! and can you believe it that it was drawn by women?? astounding....i continued my research on hentai like its a new kind of addiction.....sorry, no pun intended & if anybody feels offended.....i don't bloody care....its my fascination....not yours to begin with!

although its fun & relatively amusing, i also find it much more erotic than the conventional porn or blue films that were circulated around the girls hostel (yeah, even girls do WATCH it alright?? i wonder why you guys all get riled up bcoz of tat??)

i don't know why they'd call it hentai in the first place, its sounds so...so...derogatory & degrading but on my personal opinion, its clearly beautiful artwork done by professional artists....hey, if michaelangelo's David is considered master artwork....why not these hentais?? hmmm....the world is still typically conventional isn't it?? we're still not ready to change despite the wave of globalisation hitting us.....

so, anybody for hentai??

will the flower wilt??

its chinese new year....suppose to be a happy event but when i got home yesterday after a miserable flight (there were 3 babies crying their hearts out in the plane!) i found out that my poor Sarsi is sick again...

what am i to do?? i can't bear to lose my cat...truthfully speaking, i love this cat of mine so much that i'm melancholic nearly everyday....well, its only the second day but i still feel a deep & outright pain....i guess my deepest fears has finally come true....come to think of it...i now know and understand why i didn't want to have a relationship in the first place....thinking about my cat & how i love that little bugger so much, triggers something inside of myself....my secret fears....can we afford secret fears???

Sarsi is the first cat that i myself taken to adopt, the rest of my cats in my life was given by family and relatives....Sarsi is the most adorable cat that i ever had, he hates dogs & frequently chases them out of the house & he loves going out for car rides....thinking about him leaving seriously putting tears in my eyes & how i hate feeling vulnerable!!!

i can't seriously trust my vet....they always say the same thing over....even with my other pets 'your pet cannot be saved'.....now, is that the ONLY solution that they can come up with?? how pathetic!!! isn't there any one vet on this planet that can actually do something about it??? if Sarsi leaves me....i..i....just don't know....i don't think i can really love again.....even before i had Sarsi, it was already difficult for me....that cat taught me to love....to care for something in life & i owe it that much to him.....

will the flower wilt??? only time wud tell....only time wud tell.....