its chinese new year....suppose to be a happy event but when i got home yesterday after a miserable flight (there were 3 babies crying their hearts out in the plane!) i found out that my poor Sarsi is sick again...
what am i to do?? i can't bear to lose my cat...truthfully speaking, i love this cat of mine so much that i'm melancholic nearly everyday....well, its only the second day but i still feel a deep & outright pain....i guess my deepest fears has finally come true....come to think of it...i now know and understand why i didn't want to have a relationship in the first place....thinking about my cat & how i love that little bugger so much, triggers something inside of myself....my secret fears....can we afford secret fears???
Sarsi is the first cat that i myself taken to adopt, the rest of my cats in my life was given by family and relatives....Sarsi is the most adorable cat that i ever had, he hates dogs & frequently chases them out of the house & he loves going out for car rides....thinking about him leaving seriously putting tears in my eyes & how i hate feeling vulnerable!!!
i can't seriously trust my vet....they always say the same thing over....even with my other pets 'your pet cannot be saved'.....now, is that the ONLY solution that they can come up with?? how pathetic!!! isn't there any one vet on this planet that can actually do something about it??? if Sarsi leaves me....i..i....just don't know....i don't think i can really love again.....even before i had Sarsi, it was already difficult for me....that cat taught me to love....to care for something in life & i owe it that much to him.....
will the flower wilt??? only time wud tell....only time wud tell.....
Sunday, January 29, 2006
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